Going through a breakup made me realize I was not the narrator of my story. I was married to a man who is an excellent writer, and when I started blogging, he was very supportive. He became my editor because he was simply a better writer than me. I would only post content by running it by my editor first.
Going through the breakup, I was freaking out to the point I thought about shutting down my blog, not only because what I was going through was painful, and I wouldn't have the courage to share it. Now I also needed an editor. I became insecure about posting because I didn't have someone to give me a second opinion before posting my stories. The co-dependent issues are real. Why do I need someone else approval to tell my story? Who can tell my story better than I do? I had to remind myself that I am a Pusher; blogging is the only place. I can truly express myself. I need it right now, and I can't let it go. I looked at my bio on the website that the editor wrote. Deep down, I knew I wasn't that person anymore.
It is time to rewrite my stories, reinvent myself, be the narrator, and take control of my life. By keeping my blog, I will overcome my fears and insecurities, build my confidence, and do everything that makes me happy. It's never too late to start over and just like the blog I dont need anyone aproval to become my authentic self.
-Nivendia